Monthly Archives: June 2011
In and Out of Sync
Yesterday was a rough one. David’s death has been a catalyst for lots of other things. Sometimes loss paralyzes people, sometimes it makes them frantic. Most people experience periods of both. When the folks who cared deeply about the person … Continue reading
I’ve Lost My Balance
In the past few weeks the world has become both smaller and larger. My own little everyday world has shrunk by half. The demands of keeping everything running smoothly have become simpler. I don’t have anyone to feed, I just … Continue reading
I’m Not Strong
I’m not strong, I do probably look that way, but it’s an unintentional front. I am gutted, sad, screaming inside. I want my David back. I want to punch the fucking Universe in the face. I cannot fathom that my … Continue reading
I’m a Viking, but work is kind of slow these days…..
As I deal with all this damn loss, convinced that the universe is not out to kill me, but something much worse, like a life sentence in solitary confinement, I think of all the years that will come. How long … Continue reading
Things That Can Be Fixed Or Not
Last night I did the first useful thing since I lost my love. It wasn’t much, I shared some knowledge that I acquired along the way. It fixed something, it made something work. There are so few times in life … Continue reading
I Got a Package Yesterday
Mail gets interesting when someone dies. Along with the same old shit, credit card offers, sale flyers, bills, etc., you get a lot of cards (those are nice) and occasionally a package. I got a package registered mail. I did … Continue reading
The Turn Continues
First, thank you everyone for you kind words. No, you can’t say anything to make me feel better, but just that you want to say them means everything. Like so many of the things many of us are way too … Continue reading
