I’m not avoiding anything, goddammit.
So what have I been up to lately?
Well I haven’t been avoiding stuff, that’s for sure.
I roasted and froze 48 quarts of tomatoes.
I did a complete repositioning of a category of items at work.
My laundry is caught up.
I did this to my lawn mower….
My house is clean
I finished all 3 books I was reading.
But I’m not avoiding anything.
I’m headed down to the city tomorrow for full day of distraction. Art show, car show, dinner at my favorite restaurant. Heck, I don’t even have time to think.
And that’s good.
Because I just don’t want to think about how I felt as sat in this very chair 2 years ago. I don’t want to think about how I felt the very next day when I knew I’d never be anything but the little difficulty that went away.
I don’t want to think about why I waited too long. I don’t want to think about why I’m still sitting here, waiting again.
I’m going to have to think about it soon.
But not today.
You’ve really got me wondering. LOVE the lawnmower; that’s avoidance at it’s finest!
(((((((Addie)))))))
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxox times a million
No words, Addie. I’m sorry. I wish there were.