Fairy Tales

Cinderella has got nothing on me. Evil step sisters…Pfffft……….right.

If evil step sisters were all I had to deal with, my life would be a fairy tale. Somehow I’ve drawn the evilest set of a and b sisters imaginable.

The a-sisters aren’t actually dangerous or evil, they are only rude, dismissive, and shallow. My B-sisters, that’s where the true evil lies. And lies. And lies.

In the past I had been prone to trying to explain away all the lies my b-sister told me as a defense she used to deal with what she may have been through, or a way to overcome societal pressures that still seemed so predominate in her mind. After this last episode, I will no longer give her this consideration. I will make myself see her as she is. An evil and uncaring woman who will do anything to protect the lies that she has based her life on.

I care for her reasons for doing what she did no more than she cares for me.

There was a time, before I started my search, that I thought of myself as unique, as not being tied to any other person on the Earth in any kind of biological way. Then I found people who looked like me, talked like me, and all this changed. I felt that at least in a distant way I was part of something.

I think that I’ll go back to thinking of myself as unique. They may look like me, talk like me, but they cannot be like me. I am made of better stuff than that. I do not have it in myself to do to anyone what that woman did to me.

So I will go on as I did for many years before, an orphan, unique, and without ties. Maybe thinking of myself that way for so many years made me into a better person. Maybe only having to answer to the mirror, not some past that I had no responsibility in, made me stronger. I don’t know.

I do know that I am not evil.

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8 thoughts on “Fairy Tales

  1. I’m so sorry, Addie. It’s really sad that despite looking and talking like you, they are so lacking in the integrity and empathy you have in abundance.
    (Maybe it’s beside the point, but I bet they don’t share your wit either)

    All I know is they are base and you are fine, and that there simply are no words to adequately convey my admiration and respect for you.

  2. I am grateful to be your friend, you are a wonderful person.

    I am glad you are not evil. I guess some people are, I grew up not believing in evil, I am starting to believe that some people just are.

    Like you said, some things there simply is no excuse for.

    and Gersh, how is it that you are a “pro-adoptee” does that mean you are a professional adoptee?

    I am just an amateur

    I am jealous.

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